Letting go.

Letting go is really hard for me.

I think this is why I have a difficult time dealing with change. With change there is always something that you have to let go of.

My grandparents will be moving from the house that they have lived in for 30 some years. They've never been more than a walk away. With this change I have to let go of the childhood that I had in that house. I have to let go of all the holidays and family gatherings we had there. I have to let go of what the future looked like, because now it's changing.

In four months I will graduate from college. I'm letting go of being a student. For the first time in 15 years I won't be going to class, but going to work.

While these changes haven't happened yet they still affect me now. It has been a while since I haven't been sure of what I will be doing with my life.

 

this is t-bear signing off