Life right now

I haven't written in quite a while and I believe you all deserve an explanation. 

The very cold, hard, truth is that I don't feel like it. 

I realize that that probably sounds lame. It's not exactly a writer block moment; I just don't feel like it.

Here's the thing about life right now:

I can't stop thinking about the fact that I could be stuck in the same office, at the same desk for the next 45ish years of my life. I am not okay with that, and I don't know how to make the change without taking my whole life and flipping it upside down.

Here's the thing about life right now:

I bought a super sweet, little, cute car that needs the starter replaced, among other things. 

I'm not naming any names or placing any blames, but I'm unhappy sir; you know who you are.

Here's the thing about life right now:

I'm slowly working on this sermon that I'm supposed to be preaching to the thousands (that's a hyperbole) in little over a week (that's not). I'd like to say that this is going to be easy, but I have a feeling that some of the older people in the congregation will not appreciate the usual humour that I like to add to life. I guess the worst thing that happens is they request that I don't speak anymore.

 

Although these things aren't very horrendous, they don't add much joy to certain areas of life. I still strive for happiness on a daily basis, but it is these things that hang there over me while I go about my day, just waiting to attack.

I leave you with this quote I've found:

 

"Sometimes I feel like I'm searching too hard. As if what I'm looking for isn't meant to be found yet. I have to keep telling myself, 'Have faith in what you don't know.' It's harder than it seems."

 

Have patience grasshoppers, this is t-bear signing off